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		<title>Found: exercise time.</title>
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		<pubDate>Thu, 11 Mar 2010 18:40:44 +0000</pubDate>
		<dc:creator>Linda Jeffers</dc:creator>
				<category><![CDATA[Sports]]></category>
		<category><![CDATA[reflection]]></category>

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		<description><![CDATA[Twenty three days before Ray drops me off at the Mexican/California by the PCT Monument where JJ and Jeff will be waiting for me. 6pm is when we are supposed to meet up and set up our tents before dark. We&#8217;ll sleep out at the border and begin backpacking bright and early in the morning. [...]]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<p>Twenty three days before Ray drops me off at the Mexican/California by the PCT Monument where JJ and Jeff will be waiting for me. 6pm is when we are supposed to meet up and set up our tents before dark. We&#8217;ll sleep out at the border and begin backpacking bright and early in the morning. (I&#8217;d like to get a picture of me and my tent by the border fence!) </p>
<p>I am the least trained before any previous backpacks. Walking around MHCC carrying a pack filled with 28 pounds is not really much training. Saturday I lead the hiking group on an 8 mile PCT hike north of the Whitewater River. Our group gains the PCT from the Mission Creek Preserve parking area. We have the gate code to drive within 2 miles of the PCT where we&#8217;ll park.</p>
<p>Sunday I also hope to get in a little longer hike, maybe going up Murray Hill. </p>
<p>But this morning I was just happy I made time to at least get out and move about. Driving into LA on Thursdays takes its toll.</p>
<p>The flowers are beautiful and in full glorious bloom in our neighborhood. I shot about 20 photos on the walk this morning but they were all boring, except this one I took of me using a dirty car&#8217;s right-side rear reflective area. It&#8217;s not often I miss an opportunity for a good reflection or shadow shot of me. The woman who walked by me as I was repeatedly trying to get this shot was kind enough to only smile and keep walking. So many people say, &#8220;What ARE you doing?&#8221;</p>
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		<title>It Begins #2.</title>
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		<pubDate>Wed, 10 Mar 2010 15:54:05 +0000</pubDate>
		<dc:creator>Linda Jeffers</dc:creator>
				<category><![CDATA[Photography]]></category>
		<category><![CDATA[wedding photographer]]></category>

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		<description><![CDATA[I haven’t mentioned before what I’m going to write about now because I didn’t want to jinx the outcome.
3/1/10 – I received a very complimentary email from a local MHCC resident who had found my blog from a MHCC Hiking Club link. 
He mentioned that he does wedding photography. http://www.palmspringsphotography.net/.
3/1/10 – I very excitedly responded [...]]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<p>I haven’t mentioned before what I’m going to write about now because I didn’t want to jinx the outcome.</p>
<p>3/1/10 – I received a very complimentary email from a local MHCC resident who had found my blog from a MHCC Hiking Club link. </p>
<p>He mentioned that he does wedding photography. <a href="http://www.palmspringsphotography.net/">http://www.palmspringsphotography.net/</a>.</p>
<p>3/1/10 – I very excitedly responded to him offering up that I’d  be interested in assisting him if he ever needed help, writing I really have a desire to learn more about photography.<br />
3/2/10 – Rick responds asking if I’d mind letting him know what equipment I am currently using.<br />
3/2/10 – I respond 3 hours later listing all my gear.<br />
3/3/10 – Rick liked my gear. (See LR, its good I spend a lot of money on lenses.) He also asked if I’d be interested in being a 2nd shooter at weddings with him. </p>
<p>My thoughts went like this&#8230;&#8230;&#8230;I can&#8217;t wait to get on the phone. I’m so excited I don’t know what to do with myself. I need a reality check. Can I really do this? Am I kidding myself? Self doubt and fears are overtaking my excitement. I call my sponsor first, and then call someone I know will tell me the truth, my photography teacher, <a href="http://www.photoexplorations.com/">Carol Leigh</a>. She’s excited too, once I calm down enough to let her process what I’m saying. At the end of our talk she mentions that my busy life (she reads my blog and knows) might be a deal breaker. I fear this too. Then I run this by Ray. I can see he is excited for me too. He thinks it sounds great.</p>
<p>Things you don’t know about me:<br />
1.	I’ve not had a job since I was 19 or 20 years old. That’s a loooooooooong time ago.<br />
2.	And because I’m not had a job, I’ve not had an interview.<br />
3.	My days are usually of my own making.<br />
4.	I don’t usually put myself in situations that I am not at least a little familiar with.</p>
<p>I was a wee bit nervous about meeting Rick, but what was different about me was I just trusted the outcome of this meeting was going to be what it was going to be and I was just going to show up and be present and available.</p>
<p>I got to our public meeting place before Rick this morning. We started in talking like we‘d known each other before. Our first meeting was so nice, so easy, AND fun. We are alike. It’s nice to have someone to share with who understands and is so excited about what you are excited about.</p>
<p>One hour and 40 minutes later we began to end our visit. Actually I could have stayed a lot longer. I found our visit exhilarating. I was given an envelope filled with four pages of all the information Rick gives his potential clients. Rick asked me to talk to my husband, think about what we had talked about and get back to him with an answer as to whether I would like to be his 2nd shooter.</p>
<p>At home, my head raced. It raced mostly with thoughts of how am I going to find time to work with him. I know better than to think too long about a problem. I started going through my calendar, month by month, making a list of all my already scheduled committed days. The list revealed I have no time in March or April to be available to work. I continued listing dates in May, June, July, etc. through December. Thank God my schedule lightened up considerably after April. </p>
<p>I printed out the list of already scheduled dates and showed it to Ray. He said, “I’m glad that’s not my calendar!”</p>
<p>I copied and pasted the list and emailed it to Rick. I was sure he would say, “No way. You aren’t available to work.” But I sent it anyway, letting him know I would like to work but would understand if he said he needed someone to begin right away.</p>
<p>Surprisingly my busy March and April weren’t a problem as he often books assignments out 6 months in advance. His only concern was staying ahead of my busy schedule, surmising that soon my June, July and August would begin to fill up.  </p>
<p>In this same email, Rick asked if I&#8217;d be willing to do something he’d mentioned during our talk this morning…..whether I’d be interested in shooting and covering the action shots after Rick leaves the wedding he is shooting in a few months.</p>
<p>I replied, “Yes.” </p>
<p>It begins.……just like it began the day I started planning for and setting out on my 2,660 mile thru-hike in 2002 when I backpacked from Mexico to Canada, at first not knowing how I was ever going to do it. I have a love/hate feeling about leaving the comfort of the known and venturing into the unknown. All is good.</p>
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		<title>My sponsor Debbie at her Oscar night party.</title>
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		<pubDate>Tue, 09 Mar 2010 05:49:22 +0000</pubDate>
		<dc:creator>Linda Jeffers</dc:creator>
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		<category><![CDATA[Julia]]></category>
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		<description><![CDATA[Debbie loves movies. Any free time she has she takes in a movie or two or three. As long as I&#8217;ve know her she has had an Oscar Party. I&#8217;ve never been to one, but I know each year she dresses up as one of the nominated actresses. This year she dressed as Julia Child.


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			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<p>Debbie loves movies. Any free time she has she takes in a movie or two or three. As long as I&#8217;ve know her she has had an Oscar Party. I&#8217;ve never been to one, but I know each year she dresses up as one of the nominated actresses. This year she dressed as Julia Child.</p>
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		<title>Home to a very cloudy, overcast, misting day.</title>
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		<pubDate>Mon, 08 Mar 2010 05:42:08 +0000</pubDate>
		<dc:creator>Linda Jeffers</dc:creator>
				<category><![CDATA[Photography]]></category>
		<category><![CDATA[clouds]]></category>
		<category><![CDATA[sj]]></category>

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		<description><![CDATA[Over the weekend, during some very infrequent free moments, because I didn&#8217;t bring my computer, I read. There are a number of wonderful photography books that have been published this year and the one I was reading is Vision Mongers, by David duChemin. I only wish I had a few days where I could sit, [...]]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<p>Over the weekend, during some very infrequent free moments, because I didn&#8217;t bring my computer, I read. There are a number of wonderful photography books that have been published this year and the one I was reading is <a href="http://www.amazon.com/VisionMongers-Making-Life-Living-Photography/dp/0321670205">Vision Mongers</a>, by David duChemin. I only wish I had a few days where I could sit, read and contemplate all that David has written in this book in one sitting.</p>
<p>Here is one paragraph in David&#8217;s book I highlighted&#8230;&#8230;.. p. 29 -&#8221;You don&#8217;t see the thousands and thousands of frames of garbage we&#8217;ve shot&#8211;and still shoot&#8211;the visual experiments that we&#8217;ve tried and failed at, the stages we&#8217;ve gone through to find our vision and master our craft. But this can be your path, too&#8211;and because time both speeds by too fast and seems to take forever to get here, I can confidently say, &#8220;Be patient, you&#8217;ll get there.&#8221; If you study your craft. If you shoot and shoot and shoot some more. If you give up trusting your gear to create great images and start trusting your vision instead. And most importantly, if you love putting the world into a frame for the sheer sake of it, for your love of expression.&#8221;</p>
<p>I&#8217;m home and haven&#8217;t exercised since Friday morning. I haven&#8217;t photographed anything for way too many days. Time. I&#8217;ve got to make the time. I did sneak out for a quick grab shot when I noticed the back-lit clouds, blanketing the snow covered San Jacinto range. Soon Ray was calling me to come back in and watch the Emmy Awards show.</p>
<div id="attachment_2909" class="wp-caption alignright" style="width: 610px"><img src="http://www.lindajeffers.com/blog/wp-content/uploads/2010/03/wpid2908-3.jpg" alt="" title="wpid2908-3.jpg" width="600" height="435" class="size-full wp-image-2909" /><p class="wp-caption-text">A quick peak before the clouds moved back in.</p></div>
<p>I&#8217;m on the fence again with the Canon G11. I used the G11 for this handheld shot. I didn&#8217;t take the time to pay attention to my settings: F4, 1/2000, ISO 200, focal length 13.7 mm, focusing on the lightest part of the clouds.  I see the subject distance reads 64.4m, with a lens that is 6.1-305mm. I&#8217;m trying to figure out why the photo is so grainy when I view it actual size. I wish I&#8217;d taken more shots with a variety of different settings. If I don&#8217;t start doing this, I won&#8217;t learn. Time, again.</p>
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		<title>MSCA District 09&#8217;s Goup photo.</title>
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		<pubDate>Sun, 07 Mar 2010 01:53:19 +0000</pubDate>
		<dc:creator>Linda Jeffers</dc:creator>
				<category><![CDATA[General]]></category>

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		<description><![CDATA[About 2,000 service members, from 8 of the western-most states, are here attending PRAASA this weekend.
Each State is broken into many Areas and Districts. The portion of our group in this photo are from Mid-Southern California.
We were told to meet by the pool at 3pm for our District group photo. One of the previous meetings [...]]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<p>About 2,000 service members, from 8 of the western-most states, are here attending PRAASA this weekend.</p>
<p>Each State is broken into many Areas and Districts. The portion of our group in this photo are from Mid-Southern California.</p>
<p>We were told to meet by the pool at 3pm for our District group photo. One of the previous meetings ran overtime. The photographer kept trying to reorganize us for the photo, asking us to move closer and closer, so we&#8217;d all fit in the shot, as more and more District 9 members kept showing up over a 15 minute period. I raised my cell phone to take this photo. Only about half of us lined up at the pool are visible.</p>
<p>It&#8217;s been very informative being here, but there has been way too much sitting. I&#8217;ll be happy to hopefully get home by 1pm-ish tomorrow. Sent from my Verizon Wireless BlackBerry</p>
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		<title>Dinner tonight!</title>
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		<pubDate>Sat, 06 Mar 2010 03:35:30 +0000</pubDate>
		<dc:creator>Linda Jeffers</dc:creator>
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		<description><![CDATA[Nikki and I are in LA, staying at the Radisson while attending the weekend service event called PRAASA.
At 4:30pm the hotel restaurant wasn&#8217;t yet open. Once I heard there was an In and Out relatively nearby (a mile walk away) there was no more discussion about where we&#8217;d eat dinner. Gotta love those fries.
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			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<p>Nikki and I are in LA, staying at the Radisson while attending the weekend service event called PRAASA.</p>
<p>At 4:30pm the hotel restaurant wasn&#8217;t yet open. Once I heard there was an In and Out relatively nearby (a mile walk away) there was no more discussion about where we&#8217;d eat dinner. Gotta love those fries.</p>
<p>Sent from my Verizon Wireless BlackBerry</p>
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		<title>Photos from last night and this morning.</title>
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		<pubDate>Fri, 05 Mar 2010 04:50:14 +0000</pubDate>
		<dc:creator>Linda Jeffers</dc:creator>
				<category><![CDATA[Friends]]></category>
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		<category><![CDATA[Noah]]></category>

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		<description><![CDATA[I can&#8217;t remember if I mentioned I have posted photos here I shot while Cynthia was delivering Noah. I remember not posting that the photos were up until I had asked Cynthia if it was ok that I posted them. I just can&#8217;t remember if I mentioned here that I had a Gallery titled Noah [...]]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<p>I can&#8217;t remember if I mentioned I have posted photos <a href="http://gottago.smugmug.com/Special-Days">here</a> I shot while Cynthia was delivering Noah. I remember not posting that the photos were up until I had asked Cynthia if it was ok that I posted them. I just can&#8217;t remember if I mentioned here that I had a Gallery titled Noah &#8211; 10 minutes old in the portfolio section of my site. </p>
<div id="attachment_2891" class="wp-caption aligncenter" style="width: 310px"><img src="http://www.lindajeffers.com/blog/wp-content/uploads/2010/03/wpid2890-7-300x224.jpg" alt="" title="wpid2890-7.jpg" width="300" height="224" class="size-medium wp-image-2891" /><p class="wp-caption-text">Noah and Cynthia following direction to look at me!</p></div>
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<p>6:30am Bump &#038; Grind with Mary Kay and Jodie.<br />
<div id="attachment_2883" class="wp-caption aligncenter" style="width: 310px"><img src="http://www.lindajeffers.com/blog/wp-content/uploads/2010/03/wpid2882-18-300x214.jpg" alt="" title="wpid2882-18.jpg" width="300" height="214" class="size-medium wp-image-2883" /><p class="wp-caption-text">Hiking partners approaching the top of Bump &#038; Grind early this morning.</p></div></p>
<div id="attachment_2885" class="wp-caption aligncenter" style="width: 310px"><img src="http://www.lindajeffers.com/blog/wp-content/uploads/2010/03/wpid2884-20-300x224.jpg" alt="" title="wpid2884-20.jpg" width="300" height="224" class="size-medium wp-image-2885" /><p class="wp-caption-text">2 seconds from the top.</p></div>
<div id="attachment_2887" class="wp-caption aligncenter" style="width: 310px"><img src="http://www.lindajeffers.com/blog/wp-content/uploads/2010/03/wpid2886-21-300x224.jpg" alt="" title="wpid2886-21.jpg" width="300" height="224" class="size-medium wp-image-2887" /><p class="wp-caption-text">Yeah! This is the top of the Bump &#038; Grind. Pretty flat, isn't it.</p></div>
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		<title>With the Ladies and my thoughts yesterday.</title>
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		<pubDate>Wed, 03 Mar 2010 17:52:45 +0000</pubDate>
		<dc:creator>Linda Jeffers</dc:creator>
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		<category><![CDATA[Drop the Rock]]></category>

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		<description><![CDATA[Yesterday was the first Tuesday of the month, so five of us from the desert drove in to attend the Baby Meeting (not really babies, but a gathering of my sponsees). We meet other sponsees at my Grandsponsor&#8217;s apartment in Encino. Before the meeting we always meet at the California Chicken Cafe in Encino for [...]]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<p>Yesterday was the first Tuesday of the month, so five of us from the desert drove in to attend the Baby Meeting (not really babies, but a gathering of my sponsees). We meet other sponsees at my Grandsponsor&#8217;s apartment in Encino. Before the meeting we always meet at the California Chicken Cafe in Encino for dinner. Eight of us shared dinner before the 6:45pm meeting. </p>
<p>At the meeting Tina sets up the teleconference machine so the out of town ladies join in the meeting too. It&#8217;s a wonderful way for all of us to stay connected. Every year we read and each share for 3 minutes from a book we have chosen to read. We&#8217;ve been reading the book, Drop the Rock, Removing Character Defects by Bill P. Todd W. and Sara S. </p>
<p>On page 35, these two sentences stood out to me: &#8220;How do we define ourselves? That will say a lot about where we place pride in our lives.&#8221; During the sharing, one of the ladies shared something that also made me reflect&#8230;.&#8221;Who I am is how I&#8217;m treating you.&#8221; I&#8217;m still thinking about these sentences. </p>
<p>In an email correspondence this morning I wrote the following to someone:<br />
<em>&#8220;I’ve never been happier. It seems I’ve been graced with the willingness to make time for myself, schedule backpack trips, lots of photography workshops and other learning opportunities with this new love of photography etc. I’m living my intentions, rather than talking about them or justifying why I can’t do this or that. You know, the old, “You just don’t understand. Blah, blah, blah”</p>
<p>I’ve always been good at living my life when I’m visible to you (all), but, when I am alone and no one sees me, I have trouble taking necessary actions with things I want to do, putting the actions off, believing my lies, excusing and justifying away galore…… like, &#8220;I’ll open up that box of scary photography lighting equipment tomorrow and practice working with lighting tomorrow&#8221;. (The box of lighting equipment Stacy loaned me is sitting in my living room, in the exact same spot for a month now. I walk by this huge box, trying to avoid really noticing it so I won&#8217;t feel guilty, avoiding opening it like whatever is inside will jump out and bite me). Fear. </p>
<p>Fear =  “a lack of understanding”, says Willie B. When I don’t understand something, I get frustrated, mad, and walk away feeling incapable, frustrated and hopeless, making everyone in my path pay the price, which then leaves me feeling guilty, shameful and remorseful. I have avoided those feelings (that comes from not “understanding it”)  my entire life. In avoiding those feelings I have made people pay for my bad feelings of self AND avoided so much of what I am now experiencing and enjoying since my new mantra is “Just do it” (even your head says you can’t).  Who would have known, if I’d just endured those feelings, or been more patient with myself, or even, how about this,…… just asked for help!, how much more I would have experienced and enjoyed like I am now. </p>
<p>Big girl Linda finally knows that part of learning is going through the process of not knowing how to do something (duh)….and that if I don’t stay with those uncomfortable feelings, keep up with failed attempts to learn, I’ll continue believing I am stupid and can’t learn, and punish you with my feelings of inadequacy. (And waste my time and yours (if you&#8217;ll listen), explaining how I just don’t learn like others. Waaaa)&#8221;</em> </p>
<p>So, I have now opened the box of lighting equipment and will continue trying to put it together, test out how it works, learn and gain a little more understanding so that that age old of fear (of looking stupid, feeling embarrassed, you laughing at me (even when you’re not around) won’t stop me from experiencing all the good feelings and pride I’m beginning to have.</p>
<p>I am excited about my days, my life lately. I believe I’ve just uncovered another roadblock to happy, joyous and free, at a deeper level. That’s what I love about finally feeling secure enough that I really no longer worry what others will think of me and just continue to do what I’m afraid to do.  I learn a little at a time and end up getting happier and KINDER, to everyone around me and to Linda. It seems so simple, but I understand now that not understanding, is normal and appropriate before the understanding comes. </p>
<div id="attachment_2878" class="wp-caption aligncenter" style="width: 610px"><img src="http://www.lindajeffers.com/blog/wp-content/uploads/2010/03/wpid2877-6.jpg" alt="" title="wpid2877-6.jpg" width="600" height="450" class="size-full wp-image-2878" /><p class="wp-caption-text">Patricia, Sandi, Linda (in reflection) Margaret, and Stacy in the San Fernando Valley, just before entering California Chicken Cafe. </p></div>
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		<title>Walk around the block with a camera, late yesterday.</title>
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		<pubDate>Tue, 02 Mar 2010 18:23:00 +0000</pubDate>
		<dc:creator>Linda Jeffers</dc:creator>
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		<description><![CDATA[Knowing my morning would be consumed with getting ready for the Baby Meeting five of us are driving in to LA for today, I took some photos while on a packfree walk around my neighborhood last night.
I&#8217;m back to using the Canon Powershot A650 on walks until I read more about the Canon G11. I&#8217;m [...]]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<p>Knowing my morning would be consumed with getting ready for the Baby Meeting five of us are driving in to LA for today, I took some photos while on a packfree walk around my neighborhood last night.</p>
<p>I&#8217;m back to using the Canon Powershot A650 on walks until I read more about the Canon G11. I&#8217;m sure I just don&#8217;t know enough about the G11 to stop it from doing its own thing. I sat with the manual last night, but I was too tired too keep reading. The jury is still out on the G11. I will be taking the Canon Powershot A650 on my backpack. Knowing a camera makes a world of difference. Even though my head says I want to save up for a big girl DSLR (bigger than my Canon D40), I&#8217;m not looking forward to learning and becoming familiar with another camera right now.</p>
<p>I love my little Canon Powershot A650 (except for when I try to shoot macro). I know where everything is without much thought at all. I know all the camera&#8217;s idiosyncrasies. I just need to pay attention to seeing and shooting. No more gear!!!!!!!!! Trying to learn lighting (which I&#8217;m not learning really) has kept me from going out to shoot. Well, lighting and all the zillion other activities I have lined up all day.</p>
<div id="attachment_2866" class="wp-caption aligncenter" style="width: 510px"><img src="http://www.lindajeffers.com/blog/wp-content/uploads/2010/03/wpid2865-2.jpg" alt="" title="wpid2865-2.jpg" width="500" height="558" class="size-full wp-image-2866" /><p class="wp-caption-text">First shot before I moved closer and Mr. Bunny ran away.</p></div>
<div id="attachment_2868" class="wp-caption aligncenter" style="width: 510px"><img src="http://www.lindajeffers.com/blog/wp-content/uploads/2010/03/wpid2867-3.jpg" alt="" title="wpid2867-3.jpg" width="500" height="628" class="size-full wp-image-2868" /><p class="wp-caption-text">Noisy Raven.</p></div>
<div id="attachment_2870" class="wp-caption aligncenter" style="width: 510px"><img src="http://www.lindajeffers.com/blog/wp-content/uploads/2010/03/wpid2869-10.jpg" alt="" title="wpid2869-10.jpg" width="500" height="438" class="size-full wp-image-2870" /><p class="wp-caption-text">Can't believe this guy. See him every day. Poor dog.</p></div>
<div id="attachment_2872" class="wp-caption aligncenter" style="width: 510px"><img src="http://www.lindajeffers.com/blog/wp-content/uploads/2010/03/wpid2871-22.jpg" alt="" title="wpid2871-22.jpg" width="500" height="412" class="size-full wp-image-2872" /><p class="wp-caption-text">Another attempt at a hand held macro.</p></div>[caption id="attachment_2874" align="aligncenter" width="500" caption="It was the shadow that caught my eye."]<img src="http://www.lindajeffers.com/blog/wp-content/uploads/2010/03/wpid2873-25.jpg" alt="" title="wpid2873-25.jpg" width="500" height="411" class="size-full wp-image-2874" />[/caption]
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		<title>Showered with my backpack this morning.</title>
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		<pubDate>Mon, 01 Mar 2010 23:04:37 +0000</pubDate>
		<dc:creator>Linda Jeffers</dc:creator>
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		<description><![CDATA[Ray says that he can smell when my backpack is in the house. Ray really dislikes the smell of backpackers in the car when he picks us up at the trail headed for town and a shower. We backpackers can&#8217;t smell ourselves when we are trail dirty, but when I&#8217;m not on the trail and [...]]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<p>Ray says that he can smell when my backpack is in the house. Ray really dislikes the smell of backpackers in the car when he picks us up at the trail headed for town and a shower. We backpackers can&#8217;t smell ourselves when we are trail dirty, but when I&#8217;m not on the trail and I&#8217;m clean, I can smell my backpack and all the contents/clothing that come out of the yucky pack. By the way, it&#8217;s suggested when we backpackers are hitching a ride to a trail town we attempt to clean up a bit for the poor driver that stops for us. I wonder how many other backpackers carry wet ones and little individually wrapped deodorant packets?</p>
<p>I have once before cleaned this 8 year old <a href="http://www.mchalepacks.com/index.htm">McHale pack</a>. I wouldn&#8217;t carry another backpack because of the way this McHale carries weight. I just hope it holds up for another 20 years! It just might. But it definitely needed a good cleaning. I brought a brush and laundry detergent into the shower with me this morning. The pack may still look dirty but it no longer smells! There are two emblems sewn on the backpack, one is the McHale logo and the other&#8230;&#8230;&#8230;Is one of three of the most important items I own. The emblem sewn above the McHale emblem is the PCT (Pacific Crest Trail) 2600 mile finisher emblem. </p>
<p>The second of the most important items I own is a plaque a very special friend (I never hear from anymore, and I don&#8217;t know why) had made for me after I thru-hiked the PCT in 2002. Under a photo of me on the plaque is written, &#8220;If you have a goal you want to accomplish&#8230;.Just go do it!!!&#8221;  uffda<br />
And the third of the most important items I own was made for me by my best buddy, LR. I was on an Outward Bound in September, 1977 attempting to learn how to backpack. That&#8217;s where I met LR. One of the days during this Outward Bound we all had to do a mountain peak ascent. I got altitude sickness and had the worst time of my life, but made it. A couple weeks after the Outward Bound ended, LR sent me a wall hanging containing two photos of me, one photo where I am exhausted and passed out with my backpack resting next to me, shot after my very first mountain ascent, Mt. Henry in the Sierra. The inscription under the photos reads, &#8221; You are never given a wish without also being given the power to make it true.&#8221;</p>
<div id="attachment_2863" class="wp-caption aligncenter" style="width: 610px"><img src="http://www.lindajeffers.com/blog/wp-content/uploads/2010/03/wpid2862-5.jpg" alt="" title="wpid2862-5.jpg" width="600" height="490" class="size-full wp-image-2863" /><p class="wp-caption-text">Pack drying, after a good scrub in the shower.</p></div>
<p>Most backpacker&#8217;s carry less weight than I do. It&#8217;s been said that the more fear one has, the heavier their pack will be. Well, my base backpack weight is still heavier than most other lightweight backpackers. My base weight, no matter how I try to lesson it, always remains about the same at 21 pounds. But&#8230;&#8230;.my pack carries weight better and lighter than the ultralight backpackers&#8217; packs do with their really light-frame-free backpacks.<br />
<div id="attachment_2861" class="wp-caption aligncenter" style="width: 510px"><img src="http://www.lindajeffers.com/blog/wp-content/uploads/2010/03/wpid2860-1.jpg" alt="" title="wpid2860-1.jpg" width="500" height="306" class="size-full wp-image-2861" /><p class="wp-caption-text">Gear layed out that's going back in the backpack.</p></div></p>
<p>Boy, this blog was supposed to be about my backpack and gear. I just went down memory lane. Fond memories.</p>
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